I don’t understand anymore. I’m always the one there when any of you are alone. I’m the one that’s their when any of you are down. I’m the one that’s genuinely concerned for you’re full well being. I’m the one that tries so hard to keep everyone else’s life happy. So why is it that I’m always the one left behind ? Why am I always the least favorite one ? Why am I always the one alone ? Why am I always the least favorite out of my friends ? It gets tiresome, redundant, and discouraging. It makes me feel like I’m doing something wrong. I question what I’m doing wrong when I face this type of rejection. I don’t even remember the last time one of my friends asked if I’m even okay.
But it’s whatever. I know I’m doing the right thing by constantly caring for others, despite what might happen to my own confidence, self-esteem and well being. I’m willing to do even more. I’ll ignore the pain, and keep my head up. Maybe someone in the future will make my day and just make this all even more worth it somehow. Who knows. I can do this. I mean, Jesus did it right?